april 7, 2025

entry#0

1:01 AM: this site is a mess and i am too. it doesnt look how i want to look. it's incomplete, empty, repetitive. im not very good at coding. today i feel lost and incompetent. there's usually more to say but today i am quiet. today i am quiet and lost. like all things it will pass, there will be new days and feelings and thoughts. but today is another lost day. it pains to think at times many times i dont wish to think. i dont feel like myself but this is how i usually feel. but it will be different soon but right now i am still lost. today theres no need to decorate my words. i just wanted to address how i feel. this website will be good for me. its good that the first entry is bitter and not so ammusing, because that makes the next one an improvement. im too tired to make it pretty. im tired of performing. we should all stop performing. my friend hasnt called me yet. im listening to sprain's self titled ep, like i said, im repetetive. i dont like the first track anymore